Who Am I?

I was told by others who I should be or even who I should be like... That never set well with me no matter who was telling me. I was the bad child in the family. Never listened to my mother.. after all it was a different time than when she grew up and so she didn't know anything.. I wanted to be different than her anyway... I spent most of my life trying to discover, who was I. What was my purpose in life. I did discover my purpose in life, it is to change the toilet paper roll, not just mine but at other people's houses as well, people leave just one square on the roll so the next person has nothing. I discovered I needed to be a good mother. I succeeded in being a mother, my boys still love me and none of them treat me bad, that doesn't mean they do what I tell them to.. never did... they didn't change much. It wasn't until my mother got cancer that it came to me I was suppose to be a good daughter to her. So I took care of her when she needed me the most. Paulette and I took turns at the hospital. I was happy to spend the time with her at the end. I know I was also supposed to be a good wife. I tried that, I really did, but it's hard to be a good wife to a bad husband. I caught him cheating on me one to many times and just couldn't do it any more. Every time I said I was leaving he said I couldn't take the boys so I would stay. Then the boys grew up and left home. He then ran off with a woman he met on the internet. But little did he know I told God that I couldn't take it anymore.. and God started moving the very next day. He was gone in a weeks time. I stayed with my friend Marilou and her two children still at home. It was fun. Then I moved to Texas and became Paulette's office manager. I also went on the road with her to help her with her photography company. Still trying to figure out what (other thing was my purpose in life besides the toilet paper thing.) I am trying to scrunch my life into a few paragraphs. {sorry} It's not easy but if I can hit the high points it might work. I moved to Japan and began the best part of my life, living with Robot, his wife Yoko and their son Coby. Being truly happy for the first time in my life. Yoko is my daughter' I have even thanked her mother for giving birth to her for me. While in Japan Yoko gave birth to Shinji I chose his name. I helped take care of 'MY' baby, I would say to him "You are my baby" and he would say "No, I am Momma's baby" I took a bath every night with him. He was my baby, lol'... Both boys wanted to sleep with me, I had a twin bed. Shinji would climb up onto my back and sleep there. Coby now 7 years old would try to sleep along side me, he would fall out of bed and then climb right back up and try again,, After moving back to the states Shinji slept with me all the time. He had his own room but he would be waiting by my bed (now a full size bed, but he still slept on my back every night). Coby had his own room and decided to sleep there. So I gladly live as a grand-mother, And a great-grand-mother. That is a little difficult as she is overseas....  My grand-kids are all grown up. And I have tried to do my best, but I have been sick for the last 3 or so years, in and out of the hospital and nursing homes. I never wanted to get married again. Yes I have been asked a few times.. but the first husband taught that marriage was not for me. I have not dated in the 24 years I have been divorced. No need for that because I have indeed found my calling in life. In all my life I was trying to please different people. And that was not what I was suppose to be doing I wasn't suppose to be pleasing any one but "God" and he is easy to please. I love him, and that pleases him. I talk to him every day and that pleases him. I praise him every day and that pleases him. I go to him with my problems and that pleases him. I read the book he put out telling me how to live and that pleases him. I could go on and on with what pleases him. Pleasing people was never this easy nor this rewarding. He loves me so much that he gave his only Son so that I could be saved. Who has ever loved you so much? I can tell you, God did. and he loves you just as much as he loves me. So who am I?

 I am a child of God! 

          Peggy